Sunday, December 28, 2008

Back in the Saddle

I feel much better today. Thanks for all of your support and encouragement. I did get myself on the treadmill today and I kept going, thinking about all that I ate and wouldn't it be nice to just sweat it all off. I beat my record today and ran 5 miles in 54 min 7 seconds. It was quite a workout and I am so tired but it felt really good to be able to do it.
I also made better choices on my diet today. You know I almost wrote "I was good on my diet today" but I am trying to use the proper lashon, shall we say? It is better not to refer to it as good or bad, because we are all good people (at least most of us), sometimes we just make poor choices.
This is in life in general. Good days, bad days, good choices, bad choices. We are all trying the best we can and sometimes we slip up, but we get right back up and try again.
I met someone this weekend who I was telling about the blog and she said, "you look really good, you don't need to diet" and I recently saw a friend who I have not seen in a while and she has been reading the blog and she remarked "I was kind of expecting you would be a lot heavier because of the blog, but you look really good."
It was then that I realized what I have known all along. Good or bad choices that I make in terms of food do not define me as a person. I look good (or so they say), because I feel good about myself, I exercise, I eat healthy and I am happy. I realize that this has so much to do with how we are perceived and certainly how we perceive ourselves.
I want to clarify that I am not saying that I don't want to lose a few pounds, and if I were heavier, I would want to be in better control. All I am saying is that I try hard and I work at it, but it is not my end all and be all. I would rather have 10 extra pounds than no self worth or even have my self worth tied into how thin I am.
I say all this as a pep talk to myself after this weekend. Sometimes its really hard to stay focused on dieting. If we take it as part of the daily journey of our lives, not as the thing that defines us, then I think it makes it easier to manage.
So have a good day ladies and I love you all for who you are and not how much you weigh! :)

"You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it." -Margaret Thatcher


She-nerd said...

the quote is a nice touch. well said sarah!

SaraK said...

People say that about me all the time, how great I look. And I am at my heaviest I have been in at least 8 years! But being happy on the inside definitely comes through. I still want to lose 20 lbs, though!
Good for you for the good workout. I had a crazy day yesterday and didn't get a workout and didn't make the best food choices, but I was at the gym bright & early this morning and am back to my regular healthy weekday food choices. I hope that being in Florida will help with the motivation to exercise. When it's cold, I just want to hibernate.

She-nerd said...

happy running sara!

SK said...

Sara, you do look good because you are good! And its always a battle but one day at a time...Enjoy sunny FL, running on the beach is very good exercise.

Zehava said...

I was going to comment that its not your love we are dieting for, but I figured that was too negative. :)