Thursday, January 14, 2010

Tums or Chocolate

I was really great this week until today. No worries I have still not had any chocolate. Eleven full days and not a morsel. I have not caved and I have no intention of caving. I am just hoping my willpower will spill over to some other things I always seem to need/want.
Today I was craving the chocolate badly so I decided to trick myself by eating something else. I began with a grapefruit. That hardly squashed the raging desire for chocolate but it kept me busy for quite some time. I also looked up the health benefits of grapefruits and learned that they are packed with Vit C, lycopene and all sorts of other stuff. Can chocolate say the same" I don't think so.
Anyway I caved in and ate twizzlers which have zero health benefits but they do make mouths happy.
The funny experience of the week will explain the title of this post. There is a woman in my office who is the chocolate supplier. She sees a lot of people coming through her office and they are often needing some comfort so she also provides them with chocolates. For the most part, I eat them and then the patients have none. But not this week! Anyway she calls me in my office and says "Sarah, I heard you have Tums in your office". I said I sure do (always, in case of emergency)come and get some. When she came to get them I told her its the least I can do for supplying me with an endless amount of chocolate. She laughed, I told her I am going to keep them on my desk and see if she can pass by and resist them. I wish chocolate were as easy to resist as tums.
One day, I am getting there.
"Strength is the ability to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands - and then eat just one of those pieces." - Judith Viorst

Sunday, January 10, 2010

One week in

I am still here...barely.
Honestly seven days without chocolate was easier than I expected. Until Shabbos came. I had quite a funny experience on shabbos which I think most of you will enjoy (or have heard). I was eating out at a very lvoely family for Friday night dinner and it came time for challah. The Hamotzi was made and as the challah is being passed around I see that as everyone bites into it there is some gooey center to the challah. It did not take long to realize that that gooey center was chocolate filling and I was about to bite into it. My friends had quite a laugh and I quickly ate around the chocolate and handed the rest of the challah off to the girl next to me. It was a close call.
But I made it. One whole week without chocolate, and I survived. I have to say that it actually feels good to have that kind of self control. To look at something and say I am making a conscious decision not to have this because I want to have control of my life. I feel like this is one step in learning self control. Next month I may really try staying away from sugar. We will see.
For those of you that are thinking chocolate challah? that doesn't even appeal to me. You should just know it appealed to me, it appealed to me a LOT.
"If you are not feeling well, if you have not slept, chocolate will revive you. But you have no chocolate! I think of that again and again! My dear, how will you ever manage?" - Marquise de Sévigné

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Hard Habit to Break

I know its been quite a while since there has been any activity on this once very exciting blog. And now I'm baaaaccckkkk and fatter..better than ever.
I am back with a new technique for weight loss that may result only in me going insane, but I figured its worth a try (I am pretty close already).
As you well know, I am love chocolate. I would eat it for breakfast, lunch, dinner and snack if I could. I practically do, with a salad mixed in for good measure.
I realized in recent weeks that not a day goes by without me eating some form of chocolate. Its a bit of an addiction, and its getting out of hand.
So I have decided to change my ways. This is not going to be a diet (where have we heard that before? A lifestyle change, perhaps?)
This is going to be 30 days without chocolate (have I lost my mind?). They say (whoever "they" are)that it takes 30 days to break a bad habit. So today is the day I begin. For one month, 30 days, I am going to try my very hardest to avoid any and all chocolate. I just want to see how I feel, if I can break the habit, if I can live without it, (if my skin will clear up). Beginning January 4, 2010 I am going "chocolate free". It includes all forms. No diet chocolate ice cream bars, no fat free chocolates, no sugar free chocolate. Nothing chocolate, nada, zip.
I hope you will support me in this endeavor and I hope to keep you updated on this journey.
Lets see how it goes. Maybe it will go so well that I will become a chocolate free human being. Maybe I will feel so good I will slowly become sugar free, flour free and be left eating fruits and veggies only...or maybe I will slowly go insane...

Thanks for your support.
PS Just so you know as preparation for this "fast" I have pretty much eaten every kind of chocolate that I like in the last three days. I am almost, but not quite, sick of it :)
"My therapist told me the way to achieve true inner peace is to finish what I start. So far today, I have finished 2 bags of M&M's and a chocolate cake. I feel better already." - Dave Barry

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Cookie Doctor

Hope everyone is managing their first week back from Pesach well.
I decided not to return to weigh in at Weight Watchers until I lose some weight. I refuse to spend money right now to find out how fat I am. I know how fat I am, I would rather not pay to see it in writing.
As an aside...
At work this week I was talking to a patient and her family and one family member asked if I was making cookies again. I had made cookies for a small party that the patient and her family were invited to earlier in the year. The other family member perks up and goes "oh you're the cookie doctor?"
I am thinking, great, just great. Now I am the cookie doctor and I have to live up to that reputation. I quickly told them I am on a diet so no more cookies for a while and I am not a doctor.
A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand. ~Author Unknown

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


I was passing by the break room at work today and there was a container of macaroons leftover from Pesach (I do not work in a Jewish environment). I am thinking that must be empty because everything in this place gets eaten right away. In a moment of weakness I went to the jar and it was almost completely full ( I guess gentiles do not have a complete appreciation for macaroons). I ate two and they were good. I must say that in Memphis the macaroons we had were so stale that i think they were leftover from at least two years ago. But here in NY they are soft and chocolatey and coconutty. Yum. Anyway it was worth it and I was proud because I only ate two and did not proceed to eat the whole can.
I'm allergic to food. Every time I eat it breaks out into fat. ~Jennifer Greene Duncan

Monday, April 20, 2009

I'm back and fatter than ever

Hi guys! I have missed you and your comments!
I cannot believe the toll that the past few months has taken on me and how much weight I gained in that time. Wow. It's amazing that what takes so short to put on can take take a lifetime to get rid of.
But enough dwelling on the past and it's mistakes and on to dieting. I decided while I sit here waiting for the plumber to come that it was time to return to the blog and return to the diet. I thought if only they could stick that snake thing down me and suck out all the stuff clogging me up I would be thin and it's only $50. But then again, it's 10pm and they told me to expect him around 5:30pm. So it may be cheap but so far it ain't reliable.
That is a wonderful mashal for dieting. We can try the quick fixes and the easy way out but it often leads to short term goals and can make it difficult to reach our long term goals. So it's slow and steady again for me (which works about as well as quick and easy because it seems I like I gain it back either way).
I have made a commitment to try again and that is the best I can do. I am far from good at this but get better each time and keep coming back to it so I don't get completely out of control.
So wish me luck and I hope you will stand by me and cheer me on and possibly WIRE MY MOUTH SHUT.
Looking forward to hearing from you.
Albert Einstein, who discovered that a tiny amount of mass is equal to a huge amount of energy, which explains why, as Einstein himself so eloquently put it in a famous 1939 speech to the Physics Department at Princeton, "You have to exercise for a week to work off the thigh fat from a single Snickers." ~Dave Barry, Dave Barry Turns 50

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Time out from Exercise :(

I weighed in again today and I am still way above where I want to be. I kind of wish I could attribute it to something other than myself but I am the one responsible here.
So I am back to counting points and logging everything I eat (well, almost everything).
The real bummer is that I am having a pain in my left hip that I know is from exercising too much last week. Everyone always says watch out for your knees but it seems that my hip is giving me the trouble. I worked out 5 times last week, ran a total of 11 miles and did a very intense step class with a riser on my step. That does not include the elliptical I also did here and there. So I think I just pushed myself too hard and now I am forcing myself to stay home and not exercise. Its not even for the weight loss as much as for the satisfaction I have from doing it, that I am missing it so much. My body and soul just feel better when I am able to be active. I sleep better and in turn I feel a lot better.
Honestly, I never thought these words would be my own. Until about 6 years ago I never did any exercise. I went to a Jewish Day School where their idea of exercise is letting us walk 4 minutes to school. Actually at one point Cher was my gym teacher, because we were sort of forced to do a workout video once a week and my friend had this Cher step class and we would "do" it. I would more like watch Cher do it and call it exercising my eyes.
I have come along way since then. Exercise has become a routine part of my life to the point where it is actually enjoyable while doing it and the myriad of benefits that come along with it are perks too.
So I am now a big advocate of exercise and I think that even though I may have a couple extra pounds, I would have a lot more if I did not exercise and they would be in a lot worse places. Running especially has really helped me slim down and lose inches.
So I pray that my hip gets better in time for my step class on Thursday and I will cut down to running twice a week and elliptical in between. If it still hurts, I will see a doctor (or ignore it till it becomes fungating).

You have to stay in shape. My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is.
~Ellen DeGeneres