Thursday, January 14, 2010

Tums or Chocolate

I was really great this week until today. No worries I have still not had any chocolate. Eleven full days and not a morsel. I have not caved and I have no intention of caving. I am just hoping my willpower will spill over to some other things I always seem to need/want.
Today I was craving the chocolate badly so I decided to trick myself by eating something else. I began with a grapefruit. That hardly squashed the raging desire for chocolate but it kept me busy for quite some time. I also looked up the health benefits of grapefruits and learned that they are packed with Vit C, lycopene and all sorts of other stuff. Can chocolate say the same" I don't think so.
Anyway I caved in and ate twizzlers which have zero health benefits but they do make mouths happy.
The funny experience of the week will explain the title of this post. There is a woman in my office who is the chocolate supplier. She sees a lot of people coming through her office and they are often needing some comfort so she also provides them with chocolates. For the most part, I eat them and then the patients have none. But not this week! Anyway she calls me in my office and says "Sarah, I heard you have Tums in your office". I said I sure do (always, in case of emergency)come and get some. When she came to get them I told her its the least I can do for supplying me with an endless amount of chocolate. She laughed, I told her I am going to keep them on my desk and see if she can pass by and resist them. I wish chocolate were as easy to resist as tums.
One day, I am getting there.
"Strength is the ability to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands - and then eat just one of those pieces." - Judith Viorst

Sunday, January 10, 2010

One week in

I am still here...barely.
Honestly seven days without chocolate was easier than I expected. Until Shabbos came. I had quite a funny experience on shabbos which I think most of you will enjoy (or have heard). I was eating out at a very lvoely family for Friday night dinner and it came time for challah. The Hamotzi was made and as the challah is being passed around I see that as everyone bites into it there is some gooey center to the challah. It did not take long to realize that that gooey center was chocolate filling and I was about to bite into it. My friends had quite a laugh and I quickly ate around the chocolate and handed the rest of the challah off to the girl next to me. It was a close call.
But I made it. One whole week without chocolate, and I survived. I have to say that it actually feels good to have that kind of self control. To look at something and say I am making a conscious decision not to have this because I want to have control of my life. I feel like this is one step in learning self control. Next month I may really try staying away from sugar. We will see.
For those of you that are thinking chocolate challah? that doesn't even appeal to me. You should just know it appealed to me, it appealed to me a LOT.
"If you are not feeling well, if you have not slept, chocolate will revive you. But you have no chocolate! I think of that again and again! My dear, how will you ever manage?" - Marquise de Sévigné

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Hard Habit to Break

I know its been quite a while since there has been any activity on this once very exciting blog. And now I'm baaaaccckkkk and fatter..better than ever.
I am back with a new technique for weight loss that may result only in me going insane, but I figured its worth a try (I am pretty close already).
As you well know, I am love chocolate. I would eat it for breakfast, lunch, dinner and snack if I could. I practically do, with a salad mixed in for good measure.
I realized in recent weeks that not a day goes by without me eating some form of chocolate. Its a bit of an addiction, and its getting out of hand.
So I have decided to change my ways. This is not going to be a diet (where have we heard that before? A lifestyle change, perhaps?)
This is going to be 30 days without chocolate (have I lost my mind?). They say (whoever "they" are)that it takes 30 days to break a bad habit. So today is the day I begin. For one month, 30 days, I am going to try my very hardest to avoid any and all chocolate. I just want to see how I feel, if I can break the habit, if I can live without it, (if my skin will clear up). Beginning January 4, 2010 I am going "chocolate free". It includes all forms. No diet chocolate ice cream bars, no fat free chocolates, no sugar free chocolate. Nothing chocolate, nada, zip.
I hope you will support me in this endeavor and I hope to keep you updated on this journey.
Lets see how it goes. Maybe it will go so well that I will become a chocolate free human being. Maybe I will feel so good I will slowly become sugar free, flour free and be left eating fruits and veggies only...or maybe I will slowly go insane...

Thanks for your support.
PS Just so you know as preparation for this "fast" I have pretty much eaten every kind of chocolate that I like in the last three days. I am almost, but not quite, sick of it :)
"My therapist told me the way to achieve true inner peace is to finish what I start. So far today, I have finished 2 bags of M&M's and a chocolate cake. I feel better already." - Dave Barry